My Soundtrack of 2010

I love music and I am particularly interested in movie soundtracks, in fact I would love to have the job of creating soundtracks. I decided to create my own soundtrack for 2010.  The songs I chose were not all released in 2010, but some were rediscovered / or newly discovered for me this past year! These are just songs that remind me of 2010.  
I had two life changing events this past year, first I celebrated my 50th birthday, I know that may not seem life changing, but it really affected me. And I know everyone says age is just a state of mind, and I get that but it still freaked me out nonetheless. I feel like I just turned 30, how can I be 50 already? That's the scary part, how time just keeps flying by, and I just want the world to stop just for a moment! 

So, if that wasn't enough of a change for me,  I lost my job after17.5 years due to this messed up economy.  Many of the songs I chose to reflect my year spark a theme of lamenting but also of change and hope.  What would your soundtrack be for 2010?

Transformation – David Gray

Good Day – Paul Westerberg

I want the World to Stop – Belle and Sebastian

Animal – Neon Trees, 

Awake my Soul- Mumford and Sons

Little Lion Man- Mumford and Sons

Cave- Mumford and Sons

2000 miles- The Pretenders

I’ll be You – The Replacements

First Day of my Life- Bright Eyes

Anyone’s Ghost- The National

Who knows where the Time goes- Fairport Convention

Take Care- Beach House

Alone Again Or- Love

Sweet Disposition- The Temper Trap

When we swam- Thao

Dear God- Monsters of Folk

Thank you- Dido

 Don’t Panic- Garden State

 Shine on- The Kooks

 Another Sunny Day- Belle and Sebastian

 Just my imagination- Pete Yorn

 Still Fighting it- Ben Folds

 Here in Silence- Sandy Denny

 Sun Giants/Sun it rises- Fleet Foxes

10 mile stereo- Beach House

Friend of Ours- Elbow

 LoveLost-Temper Trap

 One day like this- Elbow

 World Sick- Broken Social Scene

 Pumped up Kicks – Foster the People

 The XX- Islands

 The Rhythm of Love- Plain White T’s

Crossfire- Brandon Flowers

Mad World- Tears for Fears

You will leave a mark – A Silent Film

We Share the Same Skies- The Cribs

Ready to Start- Arcade Fire

Letters from the Sky- Civil Twilight

Crying Lightening- Arctic Monkeys

Colorblind- Counting Crows

 House of Hope- Toni Childs

While my Guitar Gently weeps- George Harrison

 Rebellion (Lies)- Arcade Fire

Suburbs – Arcade Fire

 The High Road (Broken Bells)

The Belfast Child- Simple Minds

 Infinite Arms- Band of Horses

 Song away- Hockey

 Bring on the Dancing Horses- Echo and the Bunneymen

 Back against the Wall- Cage the Elephant

 Falling Slowly- Swell Season

 I walked- Sufjan Stevens

Dog days are over- Florence and the Machine

 Undertow- War Paint

Keeping my mind and spirit alive

The positive vibes are starting to invade my body, and for that I am so grateful! I am reading an inspirational book titled How to Change your Life, by Ernest Holmes. I thought this would be a great guide for my recent life changing event. Losing a job after 17 years is so much to wrap my head around, but my heart knows that it is part of God's plan for me. The journey I am on is scary but also exciting, I need to keep my mind and spirit alive to the wonders of the world, and realize I am made in the likeness of God, therefore I can accomplish so much in this short life here on earth, with the blessings of our Lord.

Pass it on

Love is a contagion waiting to be passed along ...Receptive to the beaming light..a shield against the cynical darkness.

Shallow minds devour your soul; all that remains weighs heavy on your heart and fuels the fear and pain that was there from the start.  

Bring on the contagion that energizes my soul and fetches the light that lifts my heart, an escape from my enemy...an escape from myself...it all begins right here and now.

I am love and love is me...and I can pass it on so easily now that I feel, now that I have  ascended from the dark chambers of my  spirit. I fear no more...The downbeat vibes that once penetrated my space... can’t hurt me anymore...I have the light…I have the love and now I need to pass this contagion to everyone.

I want to reinvent myself, but I am grieving over the loss of my job, missing the people, missing the comfort of knowing what to expect day to day. It's strange how I miss all of the things that I had been complaining about, it was truly a rut. Oh rut, won't you come back to me, you paid so well! If I had the luxury of starting completely over, not relying on the paycheck, this would be so liberating! I feel more stressed than ever now, knowing that I may have to continue to work in a field that is so not fuel for my soul. I am being pulled to greater things, I hope that I can have the strength and courage to accept my calling to whatever God has planned for me in this second half of my life. Let thy will be done.

Day 4 of being unemployed

Day 4..and I really am not dreaming..guess it's time to reinvent myself, right after this game of Words with Friends!