I want to reinvent myself, but I am grieving over the loss of my job, missing the people, missing the comfort of knowing what to expect day to day. It's strange how I miss all of the things that I had been complaining about, it was truly a rut. Oh rut, won't you come back to me, you paid so well! If I had the luxury of starting completely over, not relying on the paycheck, this would be so liberating! I feel more stressed than ever now, knowing that I may have to continue to work in a field that is so not fuel for my soul. I am being pulled to greater things, I hope that I can have the strength and courage to accept my calling to whatever God has planned for me in this second half of my life. Let thy will be done.